Hi my name is Anand and I am an alcoholic.
Please let me share my story with you. I started drinking for fun. I had no idea I will get hooked on to it and I would become a full blown alcoholic.
Initially it was fun, partying with friends, celebrations and so on, it was all going great. Earlier I would drink a beer or two and it seemed enough. Even before I realized something inside me change, I started "drinking to get drunk," almost every single day! I thought I liked it in the beginning then it became a need. Then on I started drinking even when I did not want to. I never realized when it really hit me and how.
My drinking was not normal, by normal what I mean is like those social drinking friends of mine. My drinking was a little more than that. I could never have enough, I was uncomfortable in company of anyone else and then I took on to drinking by myself. It happened too quick, by the time I realized I was a full blown alcoholic, I had lost so many things, things I wouldn't have if I had not been drinking. The first was to loose my peace of mind, then job, health and the biggest one was hope, a that I would stop drinking.
I will not discuss the loss of things in material world such as home, job or family much. I was devastated so was my wife and every one else concerned about me and my drinking. The only person not concerned about my drinking was myself.
A day came in my life, I was depressed unaware of what to do. A guy arrived at my place, he was friend of mine. He said "Anand, would you mind if i say something personal" I said go on, he was talking about his father, how his father drank and lived a miserable life and how he made everyone else's life miserable. I didn't understand why he was telling me all this until he said, "you need help and you need it now, before everything is gone." He told me there was something called AA and they helped suffering alcoholics recover without medicine, advise, prejudice and judgment. I never liked anyone talking to me about my drinking but this time my reaction was different, I had a positive frame of mind. I was being offered help and not just an advise. I needed a way out from the problem. I knew everything , all the ill effect of alcohol, I never wanted to see any shrink nor seek any treatment but my attitude changed this time, I WANTED TO HELP MYSELF. I was tired, sick and tired of being sick and tired!
I was changed. I was willing to attend AA meetings. Because my friend told me AA can change my life by stopping to drink and by making me a useful person for myself. On 26th January 2006 I attended first AA meeting, that day I was in a hall to meet new people. they called themselves alcoholics and strangely no one looked like one. Every one was well dressed shaved and quite well off. Every time there would be someone going to the front, telling their experiences of drinking. They were similar to the things that happened to me. A miracle happened I did not drink after that, not till today. My life changed and good things started happening my life, I thought they were impossible.
Today I attend as many meetings as I can. In AA I found the freedom I expected from alcohol. My life is changed and yes, there is hope! If you or any of your relatives, friends or enemies are suffering from alcohol and you feel they need help, there is help and there is hope...
AA is a self supporting organization, AA does not charge anything for those who want to recover nor AA does not accept any donations.
Please let me share my story with you. I started drinking for fun. I had no idea I will get hooked on to it and I would become a full blown alcoholic.
Initially it was fun, partying with friends, celebrations and so on, it was all going great. Earlier I would drink a beer or two and it seemed enough. Even before I realized something inside me change, I started "drinking to get drunk," almost every single day! I thought I liked it in the beginning then it became a need. Then on I started drinking even when I did not want to. I never realized when it really hit me and how.
My drinking was not normal, by normal what I mean is like those social drinking friends of mine. My drinking was a little more than that. I could never have enough, I was uncomfortable in company of anyone else and then I took on to drinking by myself. It happened too quick, by the time I realized I was a full blown alcoholic, I had lost so many things, things I wouldn't have if I had not been drinking. The first was to loose my peace of mind, then job, health and the biggest one was hope, a that I would stop drinking.
I will not discuss the loss of things in material world such as home, job or family much. I was devastated so was my wife and every one else concerned about me and my drinking. The only person not concerned about my drinking was myself.
A day came in my life, I was depressed unaware of what to do. A guy arrived at my place, he was friend of mine. He said "Anand, would you mind if i say something personal" I said go on, he was talking about his father, how his father drank and lived a miserable life and how he made everyone else's life miserable. I didn't understand why he was telling me all this until he said, "you need help and you need it now, before everything is gone." He told me there was something called AA and they helped suffering alcoholics recover without medicine, advise, prejudice and judgment. I never liked anyone talking to me about my drinking but this time my reaction was different, I had a positive frame of mind. I was being offered help and not just an advise. I needed a way out from the problem. I knew everything , all the ill effect of alcohol, I never wanted to see any shrink nor seek any treatment but my attitude changed this time, I WANTED TO HELP MYSELF. I was tired, sick and tired of being sick and tired!
I was changed. I was willing to attend AA meetings. Because my friend told me AA can change my life by stopping to drink and by making me a useful person for myself. On 26th January 2006 I attended first AA meeting, that day I was in a hall to meet new people. they called themselves alcoholics and strangely no one looked like one. Every one was well dressed shaved and quite well off. Every time there would be someone going to the front, telling their experiences of drinking. They were similar to the things that happened to me. A miracle happened I did not drink after that, not till today. My life changed and good things started happening my life, I thought they were impossible.
Today I attend as many meetings as I can. In AA I found the freedom I expected from alcohol. My life is changed and yes, there is hope! If you or any of your relatives, friends or enemies are suffering from alcohol and you feel they need help, there is help and there is hope...
AA is a self supporting organization, AA does not charge anything for those who want to recover nor AA does not accept any donations.
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